Missed moments

 "...do all those things you said would have me going..." listening to the lyrics of the song 'promises' by wiz khalifa , this specific line always got to me 

your graceful calm face singing along to the lyrics a picture I couldn't erase , my mind raced , back to when we were , back to when I'd hold you and tell you how I'll never let you go , back to when your deep laughter was a pill I was willing to take forever and now you're gone forever 

I'd want to reach out to you , to tell you how much I love you , to ask you why you left and what you so wanted to say while you held my hand on your death bed , but what would I reach out to ? your ghost? do ghosts even exist or you ceased to exist the moment I dropped my mould of soil down your grave ,, will you be on the other side waiting for me or were you reincarnated and maybe we will meet  again and you will get to fulfill your promise , the promise to put a ring on my finger , travel the world and create new life , those little pretty creatures that hopefully will have your eyes

I miss having you around , I miss talking to you rather than writing on my diary , I miss the way your fingers brushed on my lips before you kissed me , I miss our fights ,how I would throw stuff at you and you would just stand there till I'm done and almost breaking down then you would pull me to you and hug me , breath into my neck then tell me " I got you , I got this love "  

My love , my dime , you were my world , you are what I so wish to be reunited to , I love you , I miss you