Bleeding heart

 I know of a girl 

beautiful , young , funny , energetic , one full of life, vibrant and a lil crazy , the type of girl that makes days brighter for everyone 

well, atleast that's how I knew her until I got this call from Shaz way deep in the night , " have you talked to Anna recently ?  got some horrific news earlier today , could you reach out to her friend sally and confirm how true this is " 

Sally had been my neighbor and best friend when we were nine , changed schools at ten and was out of reach for ten years till we crossed paths again 

same day I met Anna , in a new town where the only person I knew was Shaz ,I met my old friend and made a new friend 

one year later my new friend is gone , gone forever 

I still have this pic someone sent me , a pic of pretty lil Anna hanging from a roof , a rope around her neck ,, the graceful smile gone , her body limp and blue 

I know of a girl 

 first time I met her she was walking with my friend Rick and I walked right past them , stupid I know 

her glamour got to me , she radiated power from the way she walked to her signature look ,there's no way I could master courage to talk to her, well, until a week later when we were introduced

four years later I still think she's a gem 

when I look at her I see this lady so calm yet so full of life 

I see strength 

I see this kind girl that is a complete mystery , a beautiful mystery 

I see elegance and independence 

I pray that a day will come when she will talk of how she believes in herself and not of how she feels lost or broken ,, of how she loves her life instead of how she hates herself and how at times she's so tempted to push that blade deep in her wrist ,, of how she's so at peace and happy instead of the pain and battling depression  

I know of a girl 

quiet and mostly mistaken for shy 

she's funny and lively when you get to know her 

she has this wall around her, a wall she only burns down to let in the few she trusts , I'm not sure if trust is the right word

I love listening to her loud laughter , I wish it could be more often and I wish she could let the entire world see this side of her 

this girl is my biggest inspiration 

I wish I could take her pain away 

I wish she could come up with a solution and make her life better like she does for everyone else 

I wish that somehow she could overcome the things she's been through and reclaim her life

I wish that life could be kind to her 

I wish she could let go of all that pain and bitterness , mostly caused by people that were close to her and were supposed to protect her , not ruin her 

Messed up minds , personality disorders , depression , suicides , a new culture ,, one that is now so rampant and escapes unnoticed 

about the three girls , it's all true , I've picked random names to cover their identity 

these three are just a few of so many out there fighting chaos in their minds , hoping that someday they wake up and everything is different , hoping that somehow life will be kind to them 

be kind 

be the reason someone believes in the goodness of people 

_shiey