Dark Love Part 1

Saturday , that day of the week everyone awaits especially we, campus students . Like every other Saturday evening it was buzzing with traffic , if you could call crowds of high,  drunk , horny , lustful youths traffic . Something was off today though , despite the evening chill it felt oddly warm . Must be a fever . I felt my forehead with the back of my hand but no , this wasn't no fever .  Must be the blunts then , you see , Josh had been out of town for three days in a row and I had to get my stash elsewhere. Josh is my plug incase you're wondering, pure marijuana.

Lifting my leg and pushing it forward , one after the other for it's what you do when you are zoned out and need to get your ass home , I reached for my jacket's zipper only to find it was all the way down . The heat was back deep in my chest cavity , I wished I had put a light t-shirt on in place of the black turtle neck . The black pants didn't help much either. I was about to turn to my friend Devin , who was walking by my side , to ask if he felt it too when I saw it , her I mean. She caused the warmth. Yeah , too much , the blunts must have hit a wrong spot.

I still stole a glance , well ,  stared .Not like I could help it. And no , I wasn't embarrassed, like every other hot stranger you cross paths with in the streets , she would be gone in less than a minute and I'd never see her again . Might as well take the chance while I still got it .

The hair was the first thing that got to me , held high and in those things they call bun or something. Damn! were those dreads? If yes , they put mine to shame. I unconsciously pulled my cap lower . But no , no one had those kind of dreads , unless you had them since birth or related to Rapunzel from the animation tangled. They were long , that I could tell by the huge 'roll' that rested on her head, dark and neat. She was in a black denim jacket to match the black and white stripped pants . She was short , around 5'4 or there about . I couldn't help note how cute she would look close to me or even better , in my arms . That was about all I could make out of her , if only she turned around , I needed to see her face .

" Yow , perv , you thinking of breaking your celibacy or something , finally wanna join us , huh?", Devin was being an ass , his specialty . He gave me a light push and burst out laughing . That got me out of my skin for a minute . He meant it as a joke but I actually considered it , with a complete stranger . She would be utterly disgusted if she knew.  Talking of her , where was she ? Had I lost her ? A second of distraction and she was gone . I hate to admit it but I felt something , probably disappointment , couldn't be a heart break . It felt like one . 

Making a right , I shook away thoughts of her . Felt good to be myself once more . We parted ways with Devin on lane two , his girlfriend was going home for the weekend and demanded his presence for an hour or two before she left . This gender , how could one be so lost to them . I was still trying to figure out how this love thing works when I bumped into someone . 

" I'm sorry " 

"I'm sorry " , we said in unison .

Her voice was soft , calm yet firm 

I took a step back and met her eyes . Grey , sterling grey , how cute . Chocolate complexion , tiny little nose  and full lips . She wore little makeup , a touch on the eyebrows and a dark brown shade of lipstick . Her earrings were tiny little pearls matching her eyes. She was in a grey top with white designs on it . The rest I had seen earlier but not on such a close proximity . A lover of simple things that was clear , and hell it did look good on her . 

Her phone rang , breaking the silence

"I'm sorry", I said one more time to ease the awkwardness , time to get my ass home . Walking past her I couldn't help notice she kept looking around as if expecting someone . As if that call hadn't made that clear. 

My apartment was a block away , a two bedroom apartment I shared with Nimph . 

Five minutes and I was at my balcony smoking a blunt . Nimph was out, which was expected, probably at that party a block away.  He had always been the outgoing one , treating each day as a weekend . He was more into alcohol and girls and parties , his way of having fun which I respected . Nimph is the kind of guy who despite his 'flashy' lifestyle had a good heart . A people person , great sense of humor and kind which was probably why we got along.Halfway into my third blunt I get a call from Nimph . Weird that he asked for stash , he never smokes . 

Sunday morning . I'm in the kitchen preparing breakfast , pancakes , when Nimph walks in complaining of a head ache . 

  " Crazy night , huh? "

  " You have no idea , remember that Chile I was telling you about?" 

  " The tattoo girl? Sonia , right? " 

  " The other one , the reserved one . She turned up and she's flames ....."

Nimph was barely done when his bedroom door opened , his girl called out . No, no , no! no! no! , that voice . It was her , I couldn't miss it even if it mixed up with ten different voices . As if to prove me right she walked right up to us . Her dreads were down and she was in one of Nimph's shirts . Her lips , pink now that she didn't have lipstick on . If I could cry , this was the right moment . 

  " So uhm , Elsa this is my roomie Evan , Evan meet Elsa "

This was sick , I was in the middle of something , if only my mind could work right . Yeah , pancakes , I better get back to that . What was that connection ? Did she feel it too? I was supposed to be celibate , what was happening to me? I couldn't stay in this house , not until she left . Which might take a few hours . 

Eighteen months later Elsa is my whole source of life . My strength , my weakness . Literally my whole world . I grew in love with her charming nature . Her strength and independence . Her vulnerability and sincerity. Her magic , spark , this light that stands out . I grew in love with the little kind gestures that made her , her . I grew in love with how composed she was when dealing with situations , her brilliant reasoning and generally her outlook towards life . But most of all , I grew in love with her touch. Her touch on my life , not that the physical one didn't turn me on . Elsa's presence in my life had served as a pillar . My job was a success , now that I was done with school . At this rate I'd be driving my dream car pretty soon . Everything was perfect , until perfect wasn't so perfect . 

Her constant push , motivation , ideas , directions for me to grow till I had my place in the film industry turned to complaints . Complaints that I was spending too much time on my work . Complaints that I no longer gave her as much attention as I had in the beginning . She no longer took time to go through my day's work and tell me how amazing it was , how talented I was and how the future held so much for me . What my pretty little jewel didn't get is that growth comes with great responsibility and we needed to adjust . We could no longer spend hours laying in bed , playing cards , smoking and making love. 

My dime Elsa was slowly dimming her light , losing herself in what she believed was love and I couldn't let that happen . Gone were the days she was so enthusiastic about her dreams , late nights and early mornings with an eager energy to make a difference . I loved her but day by day I saw little of the girl I fell in love with . We were walking different paths. There was only one was to make her see this . 

If she couldn't swim deep in my waters , she might as well get out of my waters . I confronted her . Deep down I hoped she could see my point and understand me , maybe not hate me . Her tears broke me . But her life and mine meant more . If someday our paths crossed then maybe we would give it a try . If this was where we parted ways then so be it .Maybe this was the last I would see of her . And it was . Until it wasn't ....

        To be continued