Unmasked
One more piece that I'll probably leave incomplete and unpublished but believe it's what I need to write to break this block . If you were still around , you would probably say ," you're being irrational love , it's all in the mind." or maybe you would make up a 'psychology fact' that supports my presumption and push me to work on it . I can't really tell , always unpredictable , just as I loved , love , you . 24 months and it seems to get better but somehow it's worse . Better because it no longer hurts but does it really count when all I feel is numbness ? A feeling that is hard to deal with when the things that make me , me , require me to recognize my emotions . Does it really count when I can no longer write even when I desperately need to ? When I can no longer have a hand in psychology and my dream is cut short ? By choosing to ignore your whole existence and who you are to me , I lose . I lose not just you but my whole being . Tel...