A Letter To My Younger Self
Dear younger self, the one I can't say I really knew. The one I ignored and kept hidden. Changing faces/phases like those of the moon until I wasn't sure who you really were. Today, I want to know you, I want to know every bit about you. How you laugh, I think loud defines you or maybe slightly modest, I've seen these two versions but can't tell which one is a camouflage and which one is you. I think you let different people define you, how you should think, who should associate with, what you should or not eat. You, love, have always been a shadow, changing to fit in all kind of environments, you let everyone script your life because you did not know any other way to live and feel loved, you sought comfort in the wrong places and held on to the wrong ideologies. Sometimes I wonder, all kind of wild thoughts like could you have been a christian if you weren't born into a christian family? or could you have been any less uptight if you weren't punished anytime ...